I love the bible verse below. It helps me understand why we go through the bad days to have the good days.
Ecclesiastes 7:14 When times are good, be happy; but when times are bad, consider this: God has made the one as well as the other. Therefore, no one can discover anything about their future.
Yesterday was one of those days for me. I didn't really want to leave my bed at all. I hate that I can't be the old me and I know that I won't ever be the same as I was a month and a half ago. Things happen in our lives that change us completely. I'm not saying it's a bad change, but I know something has changed inside me. It's understandable that losing my baby at 18 weeks is hard and it'll take time to get back to where I was. I just wake up everyday hoping that it was just a bad dream, but then I remember he is in a better place and I will get to see him again.
Today was a better day than yesterday. My father in law, hubs, and I went to visit Granny. She is such an amazing, caring, and loving woman. She's going to be turning 92 in less than a month! It was nice to see and talk to her. She's got so much to tell us when we are there. I loved that she reminisces about watching my hubs when he was a little baby. She remembers when he learned to walk at her house. She would stand him against the wall and call him to her. She kept telling me "I am so happy he found you." It made my heart so happy hearing that. I really am glad my hubs found me. I think about all the things I've gone through in my life and all those things (good and bad) have really led me straight to him. This journey has been a tough one, but I wouldn't change one thing at all. All I can do is trust in God and know that He has made everything beautiful in His time.
It was a rainy day today. Heading north to see Granny
Here's one of my favorite poems from one of my favorite poets. I read this when I was in middle school and I've always loved this. This has so much meaning in my heart. Hope you all had a wonderful Saturday and know that no matter how bad your day is, that the only days you will remember are the good days. Much love and God bless!
The Road Not Taken
Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;
Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,
And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.
I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.