Tuesday, April 26, 2016

But you won't see me fall apart cause I've got an elastic heart

Hey everyone! Don't you just love how I randomly pop in to blog any day of the week...I mean...month? Haha! Sorry, life happens. We all get so wrapped up in our jobs, family, friends, etc. Yes, I don't have a "job" like normal people do, but going to doctors 3 times a week for fertility purposes is a job. No one told me when we first began this journey that it would be a full time job. That's one of many reasons why I had to "retire" from being a nanny. I miss working. I miss all my kids. I miss getting them ready for the day, making their breakfast, watching a movie, or playing in the park with them. Oh, one thing I really miss is going to kid movies with them haha! I love kid movies. I'll talk about that on another post in the future.

So most of you know and have seen that on Sunday, National Infertility Awareness Week started. This week is for anyone that just found out they are infertile or anyone that is curious about it and want to know more. If you have questions, I've got answer. I am an open book. Just know that you are not alone. My hubs and I are 1 in 8 that suffer from this horrible disease. I know so many that suffer from it as well. Those are my "sisters." They have been so close to me since the day we started with fertility process. Most of these beautiful women (and some men) are strangers, but this disease binds us together in a way that no one else understands. I love you all! You know who you all are.

Definitely how I feel everyday.
I have a secret to tell you all. I've been debating whether or not to blog about it, but my heart tells me yes and the support I get from so many is overwhelming and appreciated. Are you ready? So in a week (May 3rd) we will have our 4th FET!!!!!! We are both so excited! This round my doctor is finally transferring 2 embabies, which means we will only have 1 frozen embaby left, but praying that this round works. Also, with this round he's trying something different. I don't know why I'm nervous for this round, but I know everything will be alright. Like always, we appreciate the prayers, well wishes, and good lucks. It ain't my first rodeo, sadly. We are leaving it in God's precious hands though.

Acupuncture at Axelrad Clinic. So relaxing! P.S- I had Ulnar Nerve surgery so that's why I have  a splint on.

With that said, I want to give a hand to my amazing hubs for staying strong and not leaving my side throughout the 4 1/2 yrs we've been going through this. This journey ain't for the weak and I don't think just any man would be strong enough to deal with our struggle. At times I feel like I'm going through this alone, but I forget that my hubs is also going through it. Men are different from women with their emotions. They don't show it as much as we do and we tend to forget that they are suffering with us as well. They are just good at keeping it inside. I guess between the two of us, we both can't break down. Someone has to be the stronger one and lift the other one up when things fall apart. That someone is my hubs. I always get told that I'm a strong person and admire me for it, but honestly, if it weren't for my amazing hubs, I don't think I could be as strong as I am or as strong as people think I am. He is my rock, my partner, the person I run to when I feel like giving up. He is the "why stop now?" person, when all I want say is "I give up! I can't do this anymore." Thank you. Thank you for always being by my side. Thank you for making me smile when all I want to do is cry. Thank you for being gentle with me even though I'm sure you want to strangle me (haha) and thank you for just being the Godly man I've always dreamed of. I know that when we finally have a child to hold in our arms, you will be amazing. I wouldn't want to go through this with anyone else but you. 

The real us...haha! He loves me, I swear!

Always date your spouse. Keep that fire burning.
Remember, if you are going through infertility, you are not alone! Well, there ya go! Just playing catch up with you all. Enjoy the rest of your week! 

Here's a few funnies for you.

-Mrs. B


  1. You are so amazing! I'm so proud of you! Many prayers on this next round!

    1. Thank you so much!!! Love you <3 Hope all is well with you my sweet sweet friend.

    2. Prayers, hugs for yall sis and we love yall!